Thursday, 30 January 2020

Another Classic

Saturday, 30 April 2011

Make Sure You Deliver

Funny that sometimes I get the urge to write at night. Kinda brings it back to those times in a Leeds Uni computer lab. 3am was the only time there was ever relative quiet. 3am, you walk in the "24 hour computer lab". You get in the zone. You are ready to write some of your novel, and you will only go on the Japanese version of MSN-cunningly, some Oriental trickery had managed to get it on certain computers, while the English version was blocked for 'security reasons'- when you have written some more...

One time I got in the zone.... despite a bit of noise. Then a fat English guy asked "would I like a crisp".

For the record, I said no. I would not like a crisp.

Anyway.... making sure you deliver.

I'm pretty sure my goals for this year are on my mind all the time, consciously or subconsciously. Sometimes I think I am actually not doing my goals... maybe I am not thinking about them, maybe I am doing something else which is not actually relating to them. But then later that day usually I feel a bit bad for not making enough progress...

So I'm rereading my goal post now, it's already there in my mind though. The subconscious remembers everything important. Poker, wealth, sales... first two, you can basically work at and you will get there at least slowly but surely. And I have been doing- things have been going fine there. Occassionaly I think "yes.... things are going fine.... but are you really PUSHING THE ENVELOPE... pushing your comfort zone here?" Truth is, a lot of the times you just don't need to. There is no fancy magic behind getting rich or getting good at poker- you just have to do the same things a lot. I'm making money, the longer I live at the moment I will just make more money.

My poker is fine. I played one real nice technical hand today that actually worked on a deeper level than I thought it did- and I only realised that AFTER it happened. In chess you have to calculate everything out concretely usually... especially if you're trying an opening novelty. With this hand... over in a few seconds, the amount of conscious thought amounted to like... maybe 8 seconds. Made more money than in a long time of playing chess though. SCOOP is coming soon- I've won tickets and am probably going to play. When I was playing chess I felt inferior to anyone much higher rated than me really. In the SCOOP coming up I already know I am at the skill level of a SuperNova or above if I bring my A game- they just play more than I do! I've taken money off SuperNova elites at the table and some of the moves they made were really 'questionable' aka bad. Despite spending less time on poker I feel that I'll be making decent money from it.

Sales... it's a bit less concrete. There are certain things you can do in preperation and form filling that you can do to help and it's your responsibilty to get yourself in the right mindset. Sometimes though you'll put your best efforts in and it doesn't work, just because people are unreceptive. You have to have the mental strength to put in your peak performance on the next despite that.

Sales is still going fairly well though... but yeah, I know I can improve. And I will do.

Getting to know great people is harder to quantify and again sometimes you'll put energy into doing this and it won't come off. Even when I was writing that down as a goal I could tell that some people would read it and think... "Oh OK, he wants to get to know great people. Doesn't he know enough already? I think maybe he sounds a bit desperate... yeah, I will get back to watching the football highlights now." Maybe it would even put some genuinely high value people off too. Still wrote it down though, for the world to see.

Certainly helps in getting to know high value people that you have something of 'high value' to offer yourself. Just to clarify what I actually mean by high value in this context... it does not mean net wealth, although of course some (most?) of the people will already have that. Means high value overall. As a person.

Have I got enough high value to offer? I think I have in some areas, and in others I need plenty of work. Still believe I have a lot of potential though. We'll see.

Part of the reason why I'm typing this out now is due to a comment I read on Facebook- truly wealthy people have better things to do than hang out on Facebook. Some truth in it... it made me think about my status updates. Most of my status updates relate to how I'm doing on my goals, although I do broaden it out to a bit of social commentary occasionally. I'm commenting more on other people's posts too. But yeah, I reread my status updates and I can definitely feel how some people would think "This guy just thinks about money. He's one dimensional. Hasn't he got anything else to say...". These people don't really know me that well... but they've still got a point, to an extent. I read my other friends statuses... none are quite as relentlessly upbeat as I am, despite the fact that I have a lot of very successful 'Facebook friends' who have a lot to be proud of.

They are secure in themselves and will probably go onto achieve more victories. I hope they do- and anyway they choose to do it is fine by me.

I read a lot of Nietzsche when I was at Leeds University. Once I spent about twelve hours mindmapping Beyond Good and Evil. Incredible book.

Getting into his mind, at the end of cramming all his thoughts into my head, I thought... *pretty bad that he only got some recognition when he was sick.... and only really any number of people read his writing after he died*. Like hyenas gnawing at corpses. Chuckle, chuckle... we'll get the knowledge, you're already dead.

I told myself that I wanted some recognition whilst alive, please.

I'd recommend reading Nietzsche to people reading this... it's a tough read but it'll change your way of thinking. I don't agree with everything he says but there are plenty of gems hidden in there. One is not trying to seek the good opinion of every person...

Sometimes I look at my 'Facebook friends' list and people have gone. Sometimes some people reappear without notification too... haven't figured out how that works yet. Sometimes I wonder if it's something I've done bad to them... it isn't, but like I said before, some people don't like my tone.

You're a long time dead.

So I might as well say what's on my mind while I'm alive. I don't want people on my list who aren't happy with the way I'm reaching my goals. I had to delete two people from my list- first time in a long time I've had to do that- but they were specifically, if unintentionally, stopping me reaching my goals.

With hard men intimacy is a thing of shame - and something precious

Sometimes I send 'friend requests' to people and they don't say yes or no. Maybe they ignore it, maybe they are unsure, who knows. I usually give them about a week then I 'remove my friend request'. This is how things go down in the early twenty first century, obv. Most of the time these are people I don't know but seem interesting and it doesn't bother me that much.

Someone took the time to reject me lately though. I knew her, quite a long time ago. This was when I was first writing out goals, without really knowing how to do it. This person has reached her goals far more than I believed she would- even though back then I knew she had a lot inner strength that most people couldn't see.

Obviously I wasn't high value enough.

Just so you know I don't ONLY read German philosophers, I've also written all over a W Clement Stone book. I owned that one though, so that's more socially acceptable. He talks about inspirational dissatisfaction- how feeling totally shit is really a stepping stone on helping you improve. That angry feeling, that lost feeling, that inadequate feeling- you can turn that energy around and use it for your own advantage. I've found it to be one of the most powerful forces.

I've decided not to name the person who rejected me, for now at least. If she's reading this she'll know who she is. I'd just like you to know, you've given me a LOT of inspirational dissatisfaction. I think you're the reason I had a worldwide selling novel at the age of twenty one.

I'd like you to know I haven't even really got started yet. I'm pretty sure if you do get to read this, it'll be when I am socially considered to be 'high value'.

Make Sure You Deliver.

Of course, I know that there's the possibility I could fail. I could just end up being nothing, having achieved... well, not enough at least. I'm going to perform to the very best of my ability though and I can't see that happening. Even when I was really little I always had dreams. Things were so vivid in my head. Maybe that's why I escaped into books early... loving the images they created. No matter how much anyone has doubted me, no matter what shit situation arises, positive images always appear in my head...

Whatever the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve.

Rate me on what I achieve.

Wednesday, 22 January 2020

Classic Post...

Do You Think George Orwell Spent Ages on a Sunbed?

So this is more a writer's article...

I slept with a girl who was trying to be a writer once. She tried her best but just lacked that assertiveness you need to make it as a writer in today's world...

Anyway after we slept together she was alright with me and everything... but suggested I get a tan...

I told her I wasn't going to spend time getting a tan.

You can argue I haven't 'made it' as a writer... I'm not getting paid for writing this... yet I think I'm a good writer... overall on writing ability in the top one or two percent anyway...

And I think true writers... when they need to it's just bread and art. They are not out there getting drunk. They are not out there trying to pick up Prada.

Hell sometimes they don't even brush their teeth.

I think it's good to be detached from consumerism so you can write more purely.

Sunday, 19 January 2020

Rich People

I think when you look at some of the REALLY rich people like the richest in the world, quite a few didn't come from poor backgrounds. Bill Gates didn't, Warren Buffet didn't... all the Arab oil money... hardly poor backgrounds.

And just to explain- when I'm saying RICH I mean actually rich. Some might people call me rich but I'm not at all. I think when you get to the level of someone like Eminem or Bernard Cornwell (I chat to the latter a bit)... they're rich now, from poor backgrounds... but they don't HAVE to keep doing what they do. They do it because they love it.

Feel very focused on my goals now, pushing my comfort zone and will more. Every day is goal day- I feel like a goal machine :) £££

Feel very focused on my goals now, pushing my comfort zone and will more. Every day is goal day- I feel like a goal machine :) £££

The Bitter End Placebo

Since we're feeling so anesthetized
In our comfort zone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home
We're running out of alibis
On the second of may
Reminds me of the summertime
On this winters day
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
Every step we took that synchronized
Every broken bone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home
You showered me with lullabies
Had you walking away
Reminds me that its killing time
On this fateful day
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
From the time we intercepted
Feels a lot like suicide
Slow and sad, getting sadder
Arise a sitting mine (see you at the bitter end)
I love to see you run around
And I can see you now
Running to me
Arms wide out
See you at the bitter end
Reach inside
Come on just gotta reach inside
Heard your cry
Six months time
Six months time (see you at the bitter end)
Prepare the end

Saturday, 18 January 2020

The Futureheads Hounds of Love

When I was a child, running in the night
I was afraid of what might be
Hiding in the dark and hiding on the streets
For and of what was following me

The hounds of love are calling
I've always been a coward
And I don't know what's good for me

Well, here I go
It's coming at me through the tree
Help me, someone, help me, please
And take my shoes off
And I will throw them in the lake
And I will be two steps on the water

I found a fox, caught by dogs
He let me take him in my hands
His little heart, it beat so fast
That I am ashamed to be running away
From nothing real, I just can't deal with this
I feel ashamed to be there

Amongst your hounds of loving
I feel your arms surrounding me
I've always been a coward
And I dont know what's good for me

Watch, here I go
Don't let me go, hold me down
It's coming at me through the tree
Help me, someone, help me, please
I don't know what's good for me
I don't know what's good for me
Do you know what I need, do you know what I need?
I need a yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, oh

Take my shoes off
And I will throw them in the lake
And I will be two steps on the water
Ooh, I know, I know, I know
I don't know what's good for me
I don't know what's good for me
Do you know what I need, do you know what I need?
I need a yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I need a he-yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah


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Monday, 13 January 2020

2020 Goals

Blasting this out a bit late...

Financial Goal

A set amount I must get or more :) Rest assured been working on this.

Mutual Fulfillment With High Value People

This again. Working on it.... want to meet more high value people in real life.

Health And Fitness Improvement

Already lost some weight, want to lose more. Focusing on better diet and decent exercise.

This is a quick post for now... more details on some of my goals in private.

Wednesday, 1 January 2020

2019 Goal Review


Let's get right into the goal review...

Financial Goal

10/10. Done this... you're only getting the public version for now... high value people who've added value may get private version :)

Done this with consistent focus throughout the year. Pretty much EVERY DAY did things to get money.

Decent overall year for share performance. A few mistakes though, always room for improvement.

There have been a few times where I've have money in effect stolen from me. Rest assured that I know the people who've done that and it's not a good idea for them. Again... more info for high value people in private, I don't like people being scammed so I will share the names of the people in private... and potentially take more action.

Anyone can say anything when it comes to money but anyone can't DO everything. I've got plenty of good people in my life now yet have to trust my instincts and not taking any shit from anyone... which brings me onto the next goal..

Mutual Fulfillment With High Value People 7.8/10


Overall quite pleased with this.

Let's blast things out that have been on my mind...

Chris Bailey is the only person I could really call a mentor this year. He's still as dedicated to shares as ever, globetrotting around the orb like some kind of capitalist fanatic ;)

He is quite happy to boast about all the countries he's been to... that I haven't been to...

I do want to travel more as it lets you think more and gives you new perspectives. As long as I reach my financial goal I will do... money is worthless when you're dead...

I'll always check with him before buying a share as he's right most of the time... although he's not perfect! I think I sold Whitbread at the right time this year when he didn't for example...

I've got a good close 'team' of people I chat to about share advice though so combine that with my instincts and I should continue to get good results... I have people who ask me for 'share help' quite a lot now too...

Remember... I will do this as long as there's mutual value... sometimes I'm too nice.

Will give a quick mention to Dean Staveley. Most of the year I was working for him... good in some ways, I aimed to give as much value as possible. Looking back there's only a few things I would have changed... interesting experience overall yet we both should probably have been in the office more. I'm not working for him now and have a new job with an interesting company... we'll see how that goes.

Quick mention to Liz Baitson too... she's been very nice and supportive to me! Glad to see she's doing well in property. Although I've spent a fair bit of time on property in 2019 I haven't actually bought a house or invested... but with someone of her quality I might well do. I wish property was easier to invest in... so I'm not certainly going to do it but may well do in some form in 2020. It's easy to see people in property who provide good value and I wish Liz success for this in 2020!

I still have to push my comfort zone more to meet more high quality people in real life though and this will be a focus for 2020.

Health and Fitness 6/10

Again, points for no drink drugs etc...

Seriously do have to work on this though. When the weather is decent there is NO EXCUSE for not going for a quick walk every day. So I'll make myself do this- in fact going to do a quick walk today. Going to make myself eat less shit too, want to lose some weight. Going to be more focus on this and less on money in 2020.